08.28.08
sonata
rustling leaves
picture postcard of autumn
daily living and breathing
was a destiny
I did not foresee
your eyes
iris treasures
conflicting
clay
without
a
word
everything said
with no conclusion
tomorrow will be settled
maybe not
08.19.08
this morning
I wake up
it is 6am
the traffic noise is unbearable
but I no longer hear it
I go to the bathroom
1 & 2, dooby doo
I shower
I brush my teeth
I notice a grey hair and contemplate
a makeover
in the kitchen
I drink a lot of hot water with lemon
turn the TV on
and the laptop
and the radio
charge the mobile
look over at him
he’s still asleep
it’s 7 am
I shake him
wake up honey ! cheerily I chirp
inaudible
I stare at him..for..a ..long….time
wake up honey, it’s 7:15
wake up honey, it’s 7:25 !
uh huh, okay
get up dear, it’s 7:35
mm mm…hhh
WAKE…UP…IT’S 7:45…PLEASE…GOD…PLEASE…YOU ARE GOING TO BE LATE!!!
WHAT!!…EXPLETIVE DELETE…WHY DIDN’T YOU WAKE ME SOONER?!
he goes to the loo
I set the table
make his coffee, 2 heaping teaspoons of sugar
stare at the TV screen
” the world’s a shitty place “
uh huh
did you hear what I just said ?
honey, I love you
I love you too
it’s early
I know
he shaves…puts his suit on
I pack his lunch, add some fruit
do you have your wallet, your keys, your phone ?
uh huh
he leans down to kiss me
” sweetie, you really need to relax more “
I shut the door.
angel
light’s transition
and you
have restored a life understanding
motionless
emotions
I watch
him to her
her to him
dicta phones in mammal form
you
are
different
breathtakingly sensitive
a lovely creation
you fondle with care
terrified of not succeeding
your fears
are unfounded
I am no different than you
no one
is better in love
or wiser
til yesterday
I did not understand
yet today I am a teacher
a wiser woman
no longer a novice
you have placed this knowledge in me
for this
I will always be grateful
you
are
an
angel
cast as a man
protecting this nestling
from
night crawlers
fears
and black masked strangers
wanting
to
fly
I fold into your wings
08.18.08
you didn’t come
If you want to know
I am happy now
my life is settled
with him
that night I waited for you
said
you would come
for me
later
I waited
waited
my insides
filled with the bitter,
bitter
pill of obsession
of yearning
the conviction that I was in love with you
addicted
to
the pain
addicted
to the wait
night
draws
in
I think of you now
as I did
that night
searching for stars
settling for the moon
beams
in
the
dark
that never appeared
were you ever really there?
or was it all a hazy melodrama
that I borrowed
from a storybook romance
did we even
walk side by side
sit in fancy diners
share whispers
share the night
or
did I simply fail to wake up
that night
when you didn’t come
08.06.08
Romance
the length of your arm
shimmers
stars
explode
everywhere
crickets slamming
crescendo of voices
a tiny sparrow on my knee
I am mesmerised
stillness,
quiet, quiet
peaceful
quiet
and then
your heartbeat
closes
in
your arm reaches
sinewy
beautiful
glorious
sonnet like
a
tinkle
of
rain
I am breathless
08.04.08
london
mornings
in the city
lush with sound
shadows swirl
the cobbles
quickly
before it’s too late
before
we miss it all
08.01.08
this child
this child
this tiny child
she hears sweetness
she sings songs
clapping her little hands
in carefree abandon
she dreams of heaven
and candy canes
and she cries
for baby seals
and wonders
and she cries
for broken toys
and wonders
and she cries
for all bad men
and bumps in the night
and she listens
closer
she listens
wonders cease .